Stupid Things

*sigh*
somehow I always manage to lose good friends over stupid things. Either over something stupid or because I do something stupid.
Been accused of getting scared and backing off.
I don't agree.
I think the majority of the time ppl turn out to be exactly what I thought they were.
But ...
that could be the problem there
What's wrong with me?
Why don't I just compromise and settle?
Why does this suck so much?
Why can't I change?