... answer's usually no

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
Just try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Will you be man enough to be my man?

tired of ...

"Because that takes the most strength of all: Wanting to be normal."

I try. I want. I don't have the strength to be it.

I'm not sure if I have permission to associate with you. May I see your stamp of approval please?

Does this stamp need to be time and date stamped as well? Is there an expiry date that I should be made aware of? how about a best before date? an enrolment fee? an anual membership fee? is there a secret handshake that I should be taught? a big glowing neon sign would also be handy if we can find the money in the next budget.

For future reference - yelling at me in front of everyone, public humiliation, judging me, criticising me and my friends is really not the most effective way of helping me.

"Here's me opening my wrists before breakfast, Christmas day, and here's you asking if it hurt. Here's where I choose between 'mea culpa' and 'Why the hell should I tell you?'"

Ever The Same

We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love

so freaking irritated

ever feel like you just don't belong ... not sure where you do, but you know it aint where you are? Yeah - that's me tonight.

But such is life. I have chocolate and it's good.